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A New Season 

21 Jan

A new season has started and I’ve been warring with myself on just what I would say (or write) about it. 

For a long while I’ve been in a season of waiting. I have felt a little lost and unsure about the future. Not knowing what I wanted to do or what my purpose was (is). I’ve spent many sleepless nights praying and feeling unsure about things. My anxiety has been the worst in my whole life and I just didn’t understand when God was going to bring me out of this season.  Or what the purpose of it was for that matter. It had even gotten to the point where I chose to visit my doctor and begin taking anxiety medicine. On a side note, I fully believe that God can (and does) help us through modern medicine. And I’ve learned that it’s nothing to be ashamed of if you do have to take it. I simply chose to keep it to myself and my immediate family. 

Through these uncertainties I’ve come to realize (and appreciate) the constants that I do have in my life.

•My Savior; He remains a constant in my life. I am reminded daily of His grace and His peace. Two things I couldn’t live without.

•My husband; he loves me when I don’t deserve it and accepts me as I am. 

•My family; I couldn’t live without them. 

So here I am on the verge of entering into a new season…and you know what I feel? Nervous. Many may already know this, but Thursday was my last day at my job. I’ve been there three years and I have learned so much. Not just about my position, but about myself, my goals, and my dreams. Leaving a job can be scary. You become comfortable and complacent making any type of change utterly terrifying. As I walked out of the building of my job I felt so many emotions. Excitement about the new opportunity, nervous about the unknown, and hope for the future. But the best emotion of all was a complete peace. That’s how I knew this was the right decision. That is how I knew this was the door God was opening. 

See I spent a long time searching, praying, and waiting for God to open the door. Now that He has, I still don’t know what the future holds, but you know what I do know? The One who holds my future.

So if you are waiting too, don’t give up. God has plans far greater than we could imagine. He wants to give us a beautiful life. He is such a good God. 



Don’t give up. 

Blessings,

Mrs. Hannah D. ❤

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