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A Life Well Lived

9 Jun

Our lives are like a crashing wave, here one moment and gone the next.

When going through the day-to-day of life it may seem as though time drags on. But when you look back, you realize how quickly this life goes by.

My family’s world was shaken recently by the passing of my sweet grandfather. He was 88 years old and boy did he live each one of those years. Losing a loved one is the hardest thing a person could go through. Death has removed that person from your day-to-day, week-to-week life and there is no getting them back physically.

On May 6th, my grandfather was dancing and singing to Frank Sinatra (his favorite) at my beautiful cousin’s wedding. We danced as an extended family; we laughed, sang, and made memories we soon realized would be our last happy ones with my grandpa. He was full of life. Always telling a story, always making people laugh, and always making each person feel important.

The following Monday evening, my grandpa fell and broke his hip. Naturally, we were worried, but never imagined the outcome would be so terrible. He was scheduled to have surgery that Wednesday. Surgery went fine, but that afternoon he was having a difficult time coming out of his anesthesia.

On that Thursday morning, there was no improvement. That afternoon, we found out the terrible news that he had suffered a massive stroke and had lost all use/feeling of his right side. We had almost lost all hope that he would get better. The doctors certainly didn’t give us any reassurance.

Minutes turned to hours and hours turned to days. He made no improvement and he never woke up from the deep “sleep” he was in. The decision was made to place him on Hospice.

My eyes are filled with tears as I type that word. Hospice. I’ve had such a bad experience with it before when losing my Daddy. Speaking of that, through all of this so many terrible memories have resurfaced as I watched my once full of life grandpa slowly slip away from us. The noises of the hospital, the smells, the tears; it all brings back such painful memories of the 50 days my Daddy was hospitalized.

And then, on May 14th, my grandpa went to be with Jesus. Our hearts are shattered. Just a week before he was dancing and laughing. I truly believe that the shock of it all has made the situation that much harder.

Through all of this, the words from Even If by MercyMe have been on my heart and in my mind:

“But God, when You choose to leave mountains unmovable, oh give me the strength to be able to sing “it is well with my soul

I know You’re able and I know You can, save through the fire with Your mighty hand, but even if You don’t, my hope is You alone…”

I was honored with the privilege of writing the eulogy and creating the slideshow for my Grandpa’s funeral. As I began writing, learning, and reflecting on his life, I realized something I already knew; my Grandpa lived such a full life! While I still feel 88 years wasn’t long enough, I realized that he truly lived each one of those 88 years. He has traveled the world, owned and managed his own business, and so much more.

I can’t wait to give my Daddy and him the biggest hug when I get to Heaven someday.

Hug your loved ones a little tighter. 

Blessings,

Mrs. Hannah D. 💔

“Through All of It”

24 Oct

“There are days I’ve taken more than I can give, and there are choices that I made that I wouldn’t make again

I’ve had my share of laughter, of tears and troubled times 

This has been the story of my life

I have won and I have lost, I got it right sometimes but sometimes I did not, life’s been a journey, I’ve seen joy, I’ve seen regret 

Oh and You have been my God through all of it…”

–“Through All of It” by: Colton Dixon

 
This song has been on my heart the last few days. I was actually listening to it on repeat last night. Don’t you just love songs like that? 

I’ve been filled with a lot of stress and anxiety lately. A lot of it has been all in my head, some not so much. When I’m stressed and anxious I tend to cry and even feel sick at my stomach. It’s just what happens. 

The purpose of this post is not to bring anyone down though. Even though I’ve been stressed and anxious, there have been constant reminders of God’s goodness. 

First, there was an excellent sermon and praise and worship in church Wednesday night. The sermon talked about standing firm and waiting on God. How so often in life we want to fight our own battles against the enemy, but God is fighting for us. He will go before us and fight on our behalf. He is such a good God.

Second, encouragement from my wonderful hubby and family. They listen and give the best advice. They pray for me. I’m so blessed.

Last, but not least, God’s peace. A few scriptures I’m leaning on:

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” ‭‭-1 Peter‬ ‭5:7‬ 

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” -Philippians‬ ‭4:6‬ 

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” -Philippians‬ ‭4:7‬

““I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”” -John‬ ‭16:33‬ 

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,” -Ephesians‬ ‭3:20‬ 

And this scripture, which has been an encouragement to me for a very long time:

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭

Never forget, no matter what you’re going through in this life, that God will never leave you. He will go before you. He loves you so much and He has a great plan for your life.

Blessings,

-Mrs. Hannah D. 😊

A Passion and A Pantry

7 Oct

It has been almost a month since I’ve blogged. I could very easily use the excuse that I’ve been busy and that life just gets in the way sometimes (which I have and it does), but that wouldn’t be the whole truth. The truth is that I have had so many thoughts bouncing around in my head that I really don’t know where to start. Ever have that feeling? It can be really overwhelming at times.

I’ve learned a lot about myself in the last month. You may think, “how much could you really learn about yourself in just one month?!” But, nevertheless (I love that word!) it has been a lot. Over the last month, I’ve learned that sometimes good intentions aren’t always received the way that they’re intended, I’ve learned that even if you don’t want to, letting go might just be the best option, and that when you love someone or something that love can grow when you least expect it.

There are several different directions my thoughts lead me on these subjects. However, my heart is lead to my love that has grown over the last month…well really, the last two weeks.

A few weekends ago my mom blessed me with a new CD. You see, music means more to me than what most people would probably consider “normal.” It has always been a passion of mine and something I’ve learned that I truly cannot live without. Yeah, it’s that powerful. Anyway, this CD I was gifted…it was “Majestic” by Kari Jobe. If you’ve never hear her lead worship or sing for that matter stop reading this immediately and go listen to one of her songs. I’m serious. Right now, go listen!!!

If you’re reading this that means that your ears have heard the beautiful voice that is Kari Jobe. So, back to what I was saying…at first, I was just pretty nonchalant (another cool word, woo!) about the CD. There was one song on there that I’d heard before at church, the others were all new to me. But over the next couple of weeks each song began to mean more and more to me, and each week I had a new favorite. It is a real treat when you find a CD like that and even more so when someone you love blesses you with it. So over the last couple of weeks if you’ve seen me driving and my hands are all up in the air don’t worry, nothing is wrong, I’m just having a praise and worship session in my car!

So recently I’ve been battling with myself internally about being involved in a ministry at church. It was one of those things where I knew that it was something I loved and had absolutely no legitimate reason as to why I should not be involved, however, I was still holding back. After praying and being encouraged I finally got over myself and joined. Since joining the worship team, I have discovered even more that I truly love to worship my Savior. It brings peace and joy to my heart and I could not be more thankful that God is allowing me…selfish, imperfect, broken me to help in leading people into His presence at church. I am honored and beyond undeserving. I could literally just cry because He knows my heart and STILL loves me and allows me to be involved in this ministry. I’m just speechless.

It’s funny how God can turn receiving a CD into something so magnificent.

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us…” Ephesians 3:20

Here's the CD I'm referring to...go buy this...right now!

Here’s the CD I’m referring to…go buy this…right now!

And on to my second point…you know about loving someone and it growing when you least expect it? Yes, I know this blog is really long, but it’s worth the read, I promise! I have to take this time to say how I am just blessed with the most wonderful husband. This last Saturday the weather was perfect. LIke it was literally the perfect fall day!! I mean, if the season could be defined in just one day this would be it…okay you get the point! Anyway, if you know my husband at all you know that saying he loves to fish would be the biggest understatement ever. But on this beautiful day, instead of getting up early as the sun rises over the lake, he stayed home with me. He devoted his entire day off to building me a pantry; something that I’ve been wanting since we got married and moved in our house. Something that we both knew would take all day. We spent the entire Saturday together. I worked around the house and he built me a pantry. To some that may seem like no big deal, but to me it meant the world. And you see he does things like this all the time…not the pantry building, I promise I don’t have like 10 pantries in my house…but the whole being selfless thing! That is just who he is though; selfless, kind, loving, generous, and humble. Yes I am a little bit biased, but who cares, it’s the truth! I consider it a great honor to be married to such a wonderful man; and a privilege to be called his wife.

Truth! So blessed. :)

Truth! So blessed. 🙂

Okay, I’m sure you’re thinking, “enough with all this mushy stuff!” So I’ll stop here. You know, my life is far from perfect, but I am a firm believer that there is always, always, ALWAYS something to be thankful for. Cause no matter what, in the good times and the bad, God is always good, ALWAYS.

 

Our weekend in a nutshell. :)

Our weekend in a nutshell. 🙂

Oceans

17 Sep

Sometimes in life you find that “place.” The place you can go and suddenly the rest of the world doesn’t matter anymore; where you can just disappear for a while. For me, that place is the ocean.
The ocean has always been my favorite place in the world. It’s my vanishing place; it’s where I go to let all the stress of work and school and life melt away. I’ve been to several beaches in my time; the Atlantic and Pacific; each coastline beautiful, each one unique. But there is one that holds a special place in my heart.
The white sand beaches of Destin, FL are my favorite. While the blue/green waters may seem average to some, this beach contains many of the best memories of my life. I remember walking along the coast one Spring Break on a family vacation; the sand felt like snow between my toes. I’ll never forget playing in the clear saltwater with my youth group when I was sixteen. It was in this sand that my brother and sister-in-law announced that I would become an aunt. It was this coastline where I said “YES” to spending the rest of my life with the man of my dreams. It was this beach where I spent the last vacation I would ever have with my Daddy and the first vacation with my niece and with my now husband.
At this place, though constantly moving and never silent, I am always filled to the brim with peace. It is my peaceful place, my happy place. I look out and see the water meet the sky. Never seeing where earth ends and Heaven begins. I look out and I see God. I see His beauty, His creation, His glory. The waves in constant motion singing praises to the Creator. A place filled with life and death; mystery and understanding.
I can’t help but be extra grateful when I’m at the ocean; just grateful to lay my eyes on something so beautiful and majestic. See, our lives can often be compared to the ocean waves. Here one minute and vanished the next. In the span of eternity our lives are so short. We have only one life and one chance to make a difference. I can also relate the waves to Christ’s forgiveness. When we ask for forgiveness for our sins, Jesus washes them away. He washes us clean and makes us white as snow. As the waves wash upon the shore of the white sand beach, I can’t help but think of how my sins have been washed clean through the Savior’s love.
Standing on the beach, with closed eyes, I listen intently to the sound of the crashing sea; my head is filled with memories and my soul is filled with hope. In this place I see the Creator and all His glory. I feel my sweet Daddy smiling down on me from Heaven. I feel hope for the joys to come and peace for any troubles ahead. And it is in this moment, that my heart is full.

-Mrs. Hannah D.